I was about to go to bed, but now i am sulking due to missing out on making the party tonight. (although I had a lovely time with who I was with.)
This is not a real update, but a list of things currently on my mind. Here we goooo~
1. Dear Object of my Affection,
Please either a) date me or b) stay out of my bed. (and thoughts)
2. My parents will be here in a month, woo!
3. I had my first presentation in a REAL Germany university course. HOLY FISHCAKES BATMAN. It went all right. I fink…
4. I slept very little this weekend. I am cursed.
5. I think about feelings far too often.
6. I want new boots.
7. It might snow this week! High of 32 on Thursday….
8. Nuremberg next weekend!
9. I ought to try harder on my homework. :/
10. My plans may very well backfire.
There is a giant gaping hole where my heart used to be, which was once filled with glitter, magic and reckless abandon. D: WHY MUST LOSS HURT SO BAD?! sobsobsob …What exactly has caused me such TERRIBLE pain? No, I haven’t lost a limb or been heckled by 15 yr olds. No, the facts are simply: Halloweekend is over. :< I know all of you had the exact same reaction as I do now, the identical feeling of hopelessness. WHAT MORE IS THERE TO LIVE FOR?! …Thanksgiving? Meh. I’ll have to set my eyes on Christmas (which will coincidently hold a very Heinrichs reunion!) Here is why this past two weeks been so deliciously excellent. SO EXCELLENT I TELL YOU.
Last week was jam-packed with fun (but lacked any actual jam.) Tuesday was Lauren’s 22nd birthday party! AY YI YI YI! She made us a fabulous cake (It was my dinner and delightful) and the theme was “Schicki-Micki” which here in München means “Hoighty-toighty” or “fancy-dancy” or “I’m-a-really-wealthy-yuppie-with-no-substance-:D” It was good old-fashioned fun, and sober fun! We hung out for about 3 hours, then my pals Madeline, Simon and I peaced out and made dinner together. Which was tasty. And we looked sooo chic making it too ;D
Lauren’s old yaaay!
I was chic, yaaay!
Monica and I are really just children…
Madeline and I!
I’m fairly certain I did something fun that Thursday, but can’t for the life of me remember. Whoops. Last week is becoming a blurry zombie-shaped lump in my memory bank, so don’t hold this lack of remembrance against me. Friday was Sarah’s 21st birthday, so we all made ourselves pretty, and went into town to a bar called Die Bank. We were there for hooours. :D But it was quite crowded, so some of our gang left early. However Leo showed up, and he, Sarah, Kathi and Kelsey were there for a good while, drinkin’ our dranks, meetin’ the locals. I was invited to a Halloween party by a stranger! I felt cool. (didn’t end up going..but, y’know) We made more German friends, and Sarah got the number of a very Schicki-micki lass called Patricia, and she wanted to get drinks with us sometime! Yeeeee!!! FANCY GERMAN LADY FRIENDS. Leo and I wound up dancing like fools, as per usual, and had a grand old time together. Oy.
Birthday girl, several drinks in :D
..For my mother.
It only goes downhill from here
Leo’s “Excellent” photography
Personal fav :B
My shirt (or lack there of) apologizes.
We headed home at half past 4, and got to Stusta by 5. This is becoming a reugluar weekend pattern for me D:
Saturday I was absolutely useless until the evening, where I went to Leo’s and painted my owl wings while he made “Art” ahem…He and Paul were throwing a party that evening, and it was decided I would go as a zombie, and then do their makeup :D Which is what happened, and equaled lots of fun. It was a rather chill get-together for the most part, and at one point I played football with Leo.
I EAT BRAINZ..and play all american passtimes.
Lauren and Madeline were not zombies :<
Happy zombie family!
…I’m much too good at this game
Attacking the neighbors..
No wonder I get all the men!111
Zombie Spiel! (also Leo’s photography take 1)
Then when things died down a bit, probably around 12 or 1 …we went to a bar on campus, where there was some dancing, more drinking, and a lovely chat about feelings and such with Leo. I swear, German men do not talk about emotions—-emotions aren’t real to them!..YET THEY HAVE SO MANY. I’m slowly unwrapping the Germanic layers of stoicism from Leo’s scrawny body.The highlights of the chat were:
1.He percentages to which he accepts and tolerates individuals, such as someone in our program is a 50/50, and I’m a 70/30. Yet no one gets 80/20, not even himself. (a bit sad, yet good for myself?)
2. We agreed, barring black-out drunkness (when you remember nothing and drool excessively) drunken actions are simply sober thoughts, and the booze gives one courage that is lacking in sober form. (kind of like upgrading a pokemon, only using alcohol :D)
3. When we first met, although he’d only known me 1 week, it felt like more. I forget the word for it, but there is one in German. :>
So that happened, and I believe a slight cuddle sesh. Mrph. Then we went to another bar! At bar number two, I’d had quite enough to drink, and so didn’t get anything more. Spent the time in Leo’s company, which turned into heading back to his place at 5 (and consequently waking Lauren up with our drunken rumpus) and then our friend Simon peaced out, and Leo and I chatted more about feelings. (I HAVE SO MANY AHHHH.) but he started it! …and he started it a lil oddly. (if he’s reading this, well, that’s cool. Please don’t take offense to my use of “odd”. I dug it.) Anyway, disclaimers aside:
L: So..what’s the deal with the Scottish guy?
K: …What Scottish guy?
L:. Uhmm, well..He.—
K: Ohh, the British guy with whom I visited Scotland?
L: Yeah, him!
K:…Idk, what do you mean?
L: Erm.. mumble mumble
K: Well, I used to think you were really similar, and that’s why I liked you. But now I know there’s more to you than Vikings, long hair, metal and Lord of the Rings. So I like you for you.
L: Okay, good. I remember you telling me I was like him.
K: …Why’re you asking about him?
L:..Idk..mumblebumble no definitive answer
Then we continued on a different path of feelings, because that one was going nowhere fast. And after a while, it turned into a slight cuddle puddle. Sigh. And then he said I could stay the night (morning) so I did. There was only snoozin’ and spoonin’, so don’t get your wheels a-spinnin’. But it was pleasant. I went to brunch later that day, in smeary day old zombie makeup and the same clothes from the day before. Ahh, I am a classy broad.
THEN IT WAS HALLOWEEEEEEEN! And I spent the day mentally preparing myself for the event. I helped carve some pumpkins, put up scary spider webs, and transformed into a foxy metallic owl. The party was an absolute HIT. Strangers came!! We danced and drank the night away, having not a care in the world and being quite sloshed. Mmm yesssss. Afterward, the party ended at around 1 30, so we went to another location, and danced for a while more. Then Simon and Paul were going to visit Leo, and I tagged along. He was just getting off work, and quite displeased our party was over. (we’d told him it’d go until forever. We lied.) so then we went back to Simon and Leo’s house and watched a lame movie on tv, ate leftovers, and then made ready to peace out. I was the last one to go, and that’s when the convo below this entry happened, ha. So Leo was standing by the stairs and I was by the door, and he was like “Well, I’m going to go to bed..” and trailed off, kind of looked at me and looked away, then played with his hair. I blinked, and replied: “Kay, I’m going,.” Then he mumbled something, played with his hair more, cleared his throat and was like “Oh, erm..sleep well.” And I simply replied “Ciao!” and peaced out. It was awkward. It had the feeling of a failed invitation up dem stairs. But who knows. I was home by 4 30.
Pixie decorating the zebra
The entire costume
Our spooky bar
Jasmine and mime
Owl and Pocahontas
We make the party
Johanna and I!
I used Monday to recover and restore my body, and started the week on Tuesday as normal. This week has been easy as pie, considering we had Monday off, and our professor was sick on Thursday. So basically its been excellent :D Last night I made cake with Lauren and it was delicious. Tonight there’s an international party I plan on going to. Woowoo! I’m hoping this weekend holds promise :D
I LOVE AND MISS YOU ALL. Sorry I blabber mindlessly so much. Oy.
- L: What's that on your leg?
- K: Oh, that's just where my ankle was.
- L: Ah ok!
- K: ..But THIS *points to bruised wound*--
- L: *begins giggling* That's where I bit you! :D
- K: ...Yes, yes I know.
- L: Well, you're just so tasty!
- K: *sigh*....I know.