I’m supposed to be studying for a Spanish final tomorrow, but because I went to bed at 8.30 last night, I’m having a hard time keeping my eyes on the computer screen. I think my brain is melting slowly and surely. It’s a very strange sensation….So far I’ve tackled two of my finals, both of which were on the math and science side of things. You know what this means?! I’M DONE WITH MATH AND SCIENCE FOREVER MUAHAHAHAHA SUCK ON THAT QUANTITATIVE REASONING! SUCK ON IT GOOD. Phew. Next semester I’ll be taking things like Japanese Tea Ceremony and Jazz Appreciation…..I’m hoping it’s as good as it sounds, ‘cause it sounds pretty damn good.
Tomorrow I have that cursed Spanish exam, and then Wednesday I turn in and present my final paper for my German Lit class. I’ll honestly be sad to see that class go: I really like our professor, she’s engaging without being intimidating, and the works we read really expanded my knowledge on German lit. And some of them were truly beautiful pieces. (Others not so much….) But next semester I’ll have German Translation, which will be AWESOME and scary. It’ll be in a class full of every senior German major, some non-majors and people with German far-surpassing my own. Sigh. My vocabulary is pretty thin, so I’m nervous, but excited.
The main point of this update isn’t to blabber on about school, but rather to talk about the excessive amount of FEELINGS i have inside me. SO MANY. I don’t know where else to write them. A boy has recently asked me to be his girlfriend. ….SAY WHAT?! Yeah. Girlfriend. Fuuuuuck. I guess this is what I wanted, right? This is why I’m dating, isn’t it? I’m really likin’ him. I’m just 1: scared of the word “girlfriend.” and 2: worried it’s too soon. (I’m also a bit of a harlot, so the exclusivity scares me, too. haven’t done this in a while…) We’ve been a-talkin’ since October, gone on a date in November, and I’ve seen him twice after that. I’ll say we moved pretty quicksies from hand-holding to sleepovers but…does it mean I should be his main squeeze!? I like him. A lot. I actually miss him when we part ways and I’m stuck writing stupid papers…I like him in spite of his at times crude/inappropriate humor. He’s all over the place but I’m along for the ride. Fuck. I’m probably going to be in a relationship come Thursday, when we see eachother again. But, what do I do about the whole break i’m in California? It seems silly to start dating right before I peace out. But…I also don’t want to put it on hold while I’m away.
GUHHH WHAT DO I DO?!
I keep wondering why he likes me so much. but I can’t tell you how happy it made me to hear him say, “I don’t want to see other people. And I don’t want you to, either.”
Eeeesh…Here I go again, into the sea of lurrrveee…
Went on an exceptional date last night. Snuggled a cat. And a boy. I think I’m in like. Hard.
And here I thought I’d be able to get him off my mind today—-FALSE.
LOVE FEELINGS MUSH MUSH. Haven’t had these in a while…
Christmas TV - Slow Club
Gotta Have You - The Weepies
Heartbeats - José Gonsalez
Ghosts - Laura Marling
Daydreamer - Adele
Little Bit - Lykke Li
Upular - Pogo
Winter Song - Ingrid Michaelson and Sarah Bareilles
Goodnight and Go - Imogen Heap
Heavy in Your Arms - Florence and the Machine
Go Do - Jónsi
Be Still My Heart - The Postal Service
The Blower’s Daughter - Damien Rice